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the fool

2025-04-01

biddy tarot defines the fool thusly:

UPRIGHT: Beginnings, innocence, spontaneity, a free spirit

REVERSED: Holding back, recklessness, risk-taking

the fool's visual card often represents the young fool's challenges ahead, his courage, his lack of knowledge about the future. its number is 0, which could mean either the start or "unlimited potential."

i have frequently considered getting a tattoo of the fool (i'm probably actually getting the wheel of fortune). it's been a representative card of my adult life so far. am i a fool? perhaps - i'm quite silly, and i don't consider myself very intelligent. however, i do feel decently wise, as much as i can be. despite all the dumb decisions i've made in my life, i made them with the information i had at the time, and they were smart if you factor in that i only knew so much. hindsight is always wiser.

there's a variety of things i've considered embarking on, and recently, i have always been unable to muster up the courage. i'm sitting behind the wheel of the car, shaking in my boots to turn the ignition key. there's always a reason - it's embarrassing, i could get hurt, it's too expensive, it's too scary. i am always too scared. but why must i always be so scared? why can't i be like the fool, blissfully unaware of the challenge ahead - or is he?

the reversed fool represents being naive, but it also represents fear of the unknown. perhaps i am too scared of unknowns, and i must flip the fool back upright to take the journey. i cannot trust that the journey is easy or free of fear, but i must trust myself to make it. if i can't trust myself, who can i trust?

perhaps the fool is only myself if i don't start moving.